pool party

i was at the
end-of-the-year-pool party today
there were sooo many kids
ice cream, games and fun
zack sat up in 'the' chair
twirling his whistle.
i hid in the corner
in the shade

there were so many kids,
and so many moms
i was rendered speechless
everyone tawkin 'bout their
own thing
doin this or
doin that.

i still get up oh-so-slowly,
wobbley as i go
i know i will never be the same anymore
its like my pilot light is been
snuffed out


i've lost the gift of gab
women who i used to be able
to tawk and tawk with,
for hours and hours
Now?
there is dead air.
it hangs there between us
i can feel it.
please help me
to make it go away